( Did perpetual happiness in the Garden of Eden maybe get so boring that eating the apple was justified? )

On early Sunday morning, at two in the morning to be precise, ( I called James. )

"Healthy love - something that I'm scared of,
Feels like a conspiracy, why is he so nice to me?
You give, he takes, he gives, you turn away, why do you turn away?
He gives me sweet, healthy love - so why do you turn away?
Why can't you be satisfied?"

Everything has been going well with James, ( and I have a sudden, irrational, unexplainable urge to end our relationship. )

Since I'm working 20+ hours/week at the library (and need to work more), am taking an intensive art studio class (Monday through Friday, 8AM-12PM), and such for the next month or two, I may not post much or often.

Let's see, what's going on besides that?:
Lovelovelove with James - yes, he is jealous and possessive, but has promised me his trust since ( Read more... )

I've been meaning to update but just haven't been up to it lately, so now I'm going to!
Final exams are done, and now I'm working at the library over the summer. But that's besides the point, I suppose...

( Argument and Resolution )

In February, when I posted my request on Craigslist for a distinguished gentleman, a professor at my University responded. His name is Christian, and he is an associate professor in the computer science department. Although he was good-looking and intelligent, I never did go beyond emailing him. He got cold feet and said "I'm starting to creep ( Read more... )

on saturday night, James and I had a pirate-themed movie night. he's been talking to me about The Pirates of Penzance since our second or third date, and so he brought his VHS tape of his favorite production of it to my house. I, in turn, have been talking to him about Muppet Treasure Island since our first date, and so I brought my VHS tape of ( Read more... )

at the end of our association with one another, Michael had a book of mine, and even after i had "broken up" with him, he said he would return it when he was done reading it.
on saturday morning, i walked out onto my front porch to find the book tucked away in a corner.
i honestly hadn't expected he would - i thought he'd keep it and bear malice ( Read more... )

since nearly the very beginning of our relationship, i had told James that one of my dearest wishes was ( to be fucked on a desk. )

darlings, if you read the journal entry regarding what inspired me to act upon my desire to be with an older gentleman, you will recall i mentioned a professorish-looking man who is sometimes at the bus stop on my university campus and rides the same bus home as i do. i had been hoping i would see him there on that chilly evening in question, and i ( Read more... )